Surrender

It came at me like an unbearable wave, forcing me to let go of things. No more plans. No more hopes. No more wishing.

After all, what was the point? Why was I constantly trying to find a better way of doing things.

The answer, I think, lies in a different realm: another time. Just not now.

So I surrendered, almost immediately, to the feeling and the absence of logic. I was a person devoid of cunning and mystery and I didn’t want to be anything else. I can only stay here. Endure. Wait.

Waiting. I’m not used to that anymore. But I have to be.